Grateful

Life is sucks. In so many ways it fvcking sucks. My mind all over. It messy and ugly. My life is sucks.

Positivity is overrated. Fvck positivity. I live in madness. It never settled. Jumping around. Fear. Jealousy. Worries. Sadness. Madness. I don’t even know why I should live and what is the point of life?

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Tuhan & Selera HumorNya

Saya pernah ngetwit begini: karena Tuhan adalah Sang Maha Segala, maka Ia juga Maha Humoris. Lalu twit saya disambar oleh rang orang tak dikenal yang marah-marah karena saya dianggap menyamakan Tuhan dengan Sule. Egimana sih ini?! Kaaan… Tuhan Maha Humoris pan?! Bisa aja lho, Dia mempertemukan saya sama rang-orang random macam gitu.

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Pokoknya, Minta Sama Tuhan Aja!

Iman dan hal-hal yang kita inginkan.

Ya kalau lagi bokek terutama, saya selalu bilang dalam hati, ya Tuhaaaan…. mbokyao tolong aku ini dikasih rejeki, uang banyak jadi mau ngapa-ngapain gampang! Tolong ya Tuhan, kasih hambaMu ini rejeki… trus ngarepnya, ujug-ujug pas buka tas, terdapat bergepok-gepok seratusan ribu gitu. Kan namanya aja ngayal.

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Sadness

It drags you to endless dark-hole

Few days ago, I text my friend and asked him to have drinks with me. Then he asked, “are you sad so you asked to meet me?” I laughed, “do I always asking you to meet when I’m sad?” He replied, “you always drunk whenever you sad and you always sad after. Wait, I don’t know which one comes first but just want to make sure that you are okay”

I thought, I am always this happy go lucky person. Indeed, I keep the eternal sadness just to keep my happiness in control. I don’t know if it makes sense, but life is not always about happiness. We need sadness to define what happy is. No, it is not depression in my case. Hm… no, I don’t think so. Constant sadness just to keep me grounded, less bubbly.

Ah, whatever… maybe I just need to write it down.